Simply put...

This is fucking bullshit. I just hate this fucking feeling... Why the fuck do I always do this? I just don't know anymore. I don't really understand what I'm feeling. It's just so BLAAAGGGGHH! I feel like driving my fist through a fucking wall right now. but at the same time I just want to fucking be held. Want to feel like I'm wanted as opposed to some nice guy who's just around. If I've ever made someone feel unwanted who was close to me I'm sorry because it feels like shit really. Anyone who isn't close to me still I'm sorry. SHIT FUCK DAGGERS FULL OF FUCKING CUNT FUCK SHIT THIS BITCH FUCKED SLAPPED IN THE FUCKING FACE KICK YOUR ASS IN THE FUCK FACE SHIT FOR BRAINS MOTHERFUCKER SHIT FACED FUCKER... I feel there are not enough curse words... I'd use intelligent language but I'm past that....